Pesta menghargai diri sendiri

hello2. setelah sekian lama menunggu untuk menghargai usaha diri sendiri, semalam 3 of us went to Red Box at The Curve. actually result my 1st semester as Finance Student was tremendously amazing. siyes. i never get even 3 pointer when i was in Diploma in Accountancy. Yes i manage to get above 3 for my degree. Im proud of myself. Seriously and i became double proud to myself when my short semester result also awesome and as result i manage to get current pointer DL ( deans list?) double happy nih tau. my other 2 friends, sidah and nadia. sidah currently in Diploma in Masscommunication and manage to get DL for her fourth semester and for nadia, she celebrate for her short achievement for getting offer from Uitm for bachelor in International Business. ahahah well kami2 ni bukan pandai, tapi bile dah usaha, dah dapat good result, musti la berhappy hour. before kami pegi berkaraoke, singgah makan kat Little Penang Kafe. the foods was good, delecious. you should try their rice with prawn curry. halamak curry dia pekat! and their asam laksa also taste good.

nadia ate Asam Laksa using chopstick as usual. bile sampai turn i nak rase makanan itu, daku pun nunjukkan kecanggihan jari jemariku menggunakan chopstick, you know what? toksah la. buat letih nak nunggu laksa masuk mulut je. baik pakai sudu kan? ekeke

hah this picture was taken by me. every single table pun ada natang nih. meja usually for 4 person tapi dia punye chopstick macam untuk satu kampung kan? hahaha too bad i cant use this sticks. buat ketok2 kat meja bleh la kalo utk daku.

then lepas dah kenyang, hape lagik.. mari nyanyi ah. LOL. bagus nye bile pegi weekdays and bawak student card is dapat special rate. nyanyi dari 3pm - 7pm for rm24 per person. termasuk air 2 gelas sorang and some kudap2. well kami bertige tidak melepaskan peluang nak jerit sampai tak kuar suara. bese la bukan senang nak terpekik terlolong cmni. kang duk umah jerit2 org kata gile. satu area umah lak dengar.hah skang jerit la sampai tak mahu. lagu wajib, i dont want to miss a thing by aerosmith ngan kejora by search. ngancam abes la suara kami bertige. bintang kecil kat tv9 pun tak leh carik makan pasnih kalo dgr suare kami ni. ekekek

from the left sidah and nadia

dah nama pun free air, order saje. abes nye idak hehe

hah lepas tamat sesi sumbangan lagu dari kami, singgah la satu kedai roti yang bernama B**s haha teka la. musti sume pun tau. niat dihati nak amik ati mak ku nan sorang dgn roti. for your information, my mom suke makan roti butter wit sugar. too bad tade lak roti tu, so beli la danish oleh kerana seakan sama. tetengah bayar kat cashier kan, bleh tak kitorang nampak tikus atas oven dia. aaaaaa tIiidAakkk! tu pun nampak setelah dibayar. so one of my friend p la ckp ngan pekerja situ. cmni la lebeh kurang dialog nye:

nadia : miss, we saw a rat on top of your oven. would u do something on the rat?

worker : yes we noticed bout that and the rat always there.

hahaha 3 of us jadi kaku, speechless. how come dia leh jawab cmgitu kan? so kami pun blah je la. malas nak bertekak. roti tu ku buangkan dirumah tak bg mak makan. ye la kite mana tau kebersihan dia. biar la duit rugi janji mak tak saket. kan kan?

after jalan2 kejap, kitorang balik and i send nadia home. on my way back, my mom asked for ubat batuk. dah 2 minggu dia batuk. ye la jerebu2 ni senang sgt kite ni kene mcm2 penyakit. pas beli ubat batuk cap kaki tiga, pegi singgah kopitiam with sidah sbb rase lapar plak kan? ala sebenarnye sebagai penutup hari menghargai diri sendiri. i ordered asam laksa, and sidah ordered nasi lemak rendang. perghh sedap la rendang dia. mengancam btol. asam laksa wasnt so bad cume kaler dia tak semeriah kat Little Penang Kafe. pas makan, borak2 pas borak2, order roti bakar plak, borak2 lagik then baru la i anta sidah balik. i enjoyed myself yesterday. tak pegi shopping coz shopping memerlukan pemerhatian yang bagus. kami hanya berjalan tanpa haluan. miahahaha. gamba lain akan ku tempek kat sini later coz, camera daku out of battery. tunggu la dari sidah plak okek.

p/s jom la nyanyi lagik. best la

Lili.Lulu hope you are recovering =)

Special posting for Lili.Lulu

The smell of your skin lingers on me now

Your probably on your flight back to your home town

I need some shelter of my own protection baby

To be with myself instead of calamity

Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But Ive got to get a move on with my life

Its time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry

The path that I'm walking

I must go alone

I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they

And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to with you

It's personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

Its time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard

We'll play jacks and uno cards

Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine

Valentine

Yes you can hold my hand if u want to

Cause I want to hold yours too

Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But its time for me to go home

Its getting late, dark outside

I need to be with myself instead of calamity

Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

Its time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry

Big Girls Dont Cry - Fergie

kopitiam & me

This evening i went to oldtown kopitiam wif nadia after she went for medical check up @ Razif Norana's. just two of us since other friends are busy. actually nadia banje makan sebagai upah mengheret daku kemana saja dia pegi skang. well niat dihati nak makan asam laksa. sat gi dah abes. so i decided to try prawn mee while nadia tried tomyam siam meehoon wif crabstick. i order myself ice white tea and ice lemon tea for nadia. well while waiting the food served, usual things borak2, cucuk2 leher nadia ( sensitivity nye disitu) then a waiter brought this...

2 set of chopstick wif spoon. aint it very beautiful in black color?

Well it is not about how beautiful it is in black but it is about me. how im gonna to use dat thing? hahaha yeah yeah u can laugh at me coz i dun even now how to use it. ive tried to learn how to use it from couples of friends, but sadly i cant. jari jemari ni dah keras gamaknye. at this time nadia dah gelak2 kan daku yang kampung ini. takpe2 . siap ko nadia, aku tempek gambo ko kat sini. ko tunggu ye. hah tgh borak2, sampai la makanan yang diorder.

my prawn mee wif ice white tea. but mana prawn nye? ekeke

mak nenek bernama nadia dengan makanan nye. lantak ko sini hahaha

sudah nye spoon ngan fork juge ku mintakkan pada waiter itu. hahahaha

muka gumbire bile dah kenyang ekekekek

p/s this coming wednesday jom p redbox? nak karaoke. jom join?

salah satu acara melemahkan jiwa

hello. i choose this orange color for this entry sebab tadi i went for one normal activity org melayu hujung minggu. ORG KAWEN. they are using this color as their theme. hah im not so into attending majlis org kawen. bese la. sesak2, panas, sesak2 dan peluh2 eden dibueknyo. cair mekap eden. this function actually my father's pakcik saudara so maksud nye atuk sedara la pangkat dia kan? dia kawen kan anak nye. ntah laki ntah pompan. i dun give a damn. actually tade pun dlm plan i diheret sama. sbb tak rapat. kenal pun gitu2 je. so tayah p tu adalah musti. abah janji ngan my aunty nak bwk dia p sama arini. kire aunty tumpang kete abah la. skali pagi ni abah kata 'adik, bawak mak ngan ucu pegi umah org kawen. abah ade keje sket' hah ces. aku tibe2 disuruh jadi supir. takpe la oleh kerana terlanjur janji dari bapak ku kepada kakak nye, aku disuruh jadi supir. aku pun p la ngan mak, dan ucu. tempat tu nama nye Jeram. tau ke anak anak? jalan nak p Kuala Selangor. actually merangkap kampung mak saya. miahahahha. panas nye toksah cite la, haus, peluh2, rase nak bukak baju je dah. mekap pun cair la skali. sampai2 je sana terus ku halakan diri ke hidangan makanan kerana lapar. duduk la satu tempat wif my mom and aunt.

tempat amek makanan

weh ni la org melayu, kot ye kalo ade org kawen pun jgn la tunjuk sgt kat umah idok makan ke idok masak ke, makcik2 sebelah kan main bertambah siap warning cucu kata kang kalo lapa kat umah tade makanan, baik tambah. apa kes? hadoi.dah la cucu tumpahkan air atas meja. kalau kena baju daku, mmg makan terajang je cucu dia tu. ade lagi org cmni eh. bukan kata tak bole, tapi sbenanye apa tujuan nak p umah org kawen? makan ke? kalo pasal makan la, serupe aku duk umah dan makan. ekekeke. pastu makcik sebelah ni dgn spek itam tak tanggal, gelang kan main berat aku nengok, gaya ckp mcm slang org AMARIKA. ekekek aku tegelak lagi. hasrat dihati cepatlah aku abeskan makanan supaya cepat angkat punggung aku dari sana. well after1/2 hour duk sana, daku nyuarakan pendapat supaya pulang. sbb sudah peluh2, sudah letih sbb panas. but one thing i puji lauk simple. ade kuah acar, rendang daging, tempe dan tibe2 ade udang cili. haha sedap je dpt makan ala ala kampung ni. bila nak balik mak ngan ucu salam2 la tuan rumah. tetibe ade berarak. hadoi depa dua nak nengok plak. lantak la, daku pun snap la gamba sana sini. sile la ye.

suasana disini

tuan rumah

emotionality diri ini

hey blog. well i seldom posting siang2 hari. but today ntah la bosan je. tu yg nak posting ni. anyway today saturday. 3 things happen to me. 1st i watched hindustan film kat tv tadi. tade wat pape so nengok je la. very the touching one. pasal abang jaga adik. well tau la kan my relationship wif my bro. kejap baik kejap gado. 2nd i ajak my mom p giant hypermarket tau. i nak ajak pegi beli makanan kudap2. tau ape tu kudap? yg bole dikunyah sambil tgk tv ke duduk2 ke sebab stok kat umah dah abes. 3rd someone i knew virtualy for couple of months nak ajak jumpe. well to be honest i takot nak jumpe. bese la low self esteem. or better to say i tanak amik risiko bile i dah jumpe and he dont want to see me again after dat. so why take risk? i tatau between this three things yang mana buat i menangis tibe2. my mom tanak p giant. cite industan tu dah abes and that guy i knew asyik sms ckp dia ade kat umah tak p mana2 and tunggu i bg green light je nak jumpe. dia baik. i mean virtualy dia baik. im not sure do i have feelings for him. i feel guilty to let him waiting for my call. dia sanggup datang area umah i. tapi mcm2 excuses i bagi. what should i do? dia kata this whole weekend dia nak spend his time with me. i would luv to see him but i dun have any guts. takkan pasal mak tanak p giant i nanges kan? tipu la pasal cite industan tadi i tak nanges. tp cover line sbb mak pun tgk sama. well what should i tell this man? nape i nanges? emosi tak stabil ketika ini. i nak p tempat yang i ske and mesti korang gelak. takkan la giant yg i ske. yes i ske p giant. tgk barang2, belek2 barang bole buat i lupe pasal unstable emotion. i nak ajak kawan minum sume pun bz. ye la weekend sume nak spend ngan family. well i guess nanges tu better decision currently.

unsafe community

hello there. when im posting this blog, i was in my bro's room. kinda tumpang his room tonight. im a bit afraid to sleep in my own roOm. u know why? just now around 8 i watched terminator 3. this is my 1st time watching this movie. so i was so excited at dat moment. i used to open the pintu kayu umah coz i was sitting kat living room kan? so bia angin masuk sket. while im watching this movie, ive heard someone yelling and i saw people running in front of my house. so i thought maybe bebudak sabah yang mmg biasanya lalu depan umah and buat kecoh2. so i biarkan je la. coz too many sounds la bole dengar tetiap malam. tengah2 tgk tv ni my jiran panggil and asked did i saw person ran away? i said yes then i asked him why? dia ckp la ade pencuri masuk umah one of our neighbour. my mom, my bro and me pun kuar la umah. i tengok dah ramai jiran2 kuar umah. this neigbour yang rumah kene masuk ni pun keco la. i can see people up on the roof. looking and seeking for that thief. but too bad that thief ran away. everybody in their own house checked their own house to make sure the thief didnt get into their houses. ye la every houses ade siling yang terbuka kan? so the thief can get in easily.after 1/2 hour 2 policemen came here and panjat bumbung juge. checked sana sini. coz umah ni selang 3 je dari umah i. dedekat umah kitorang ni ade 2 empty house. tiada penghuni. menambahkan lagi kekalutan kan? mana la tau pencuri tu dalam empty house tu kan? then kan tetengah police officer ni wat keje datang la satu family ni. bleh tak dia nak wat report dia baru je kene ragut kat depan umah dia. area2 umah i la but tak satu jalan. wah cepat btol org tau depan umah kami ade police officer. bagaikan internet begerak tetibe ramai org depan umah kami sume. to me this is not the 1st time kami sume berdepan dgn masalah ni cume yg pelik pencuri tu guna masa time org tak sangka kan? ye la slalunye pencuri ni waktu tgh malam kan? but rite now no specific time i guess coz kalo lewat malam ade rukun tetangga meronda this area. wahh takot la pk cmni. ragut sana sini. masuk umah org. hey bersyukur kalo pencuri ni curi je barang. kalo di apa apakan manusia dlm umah? cmne? teruk je. in this case anak pompan dia je dlm umah. luckily dia menjerit kuat2. so that thief ran away maybe dia amatur kot? so memandangkan bilik i ni ade siling mcm nak roboh sbb bocor kot i decided nak tumpang bilik abg until my dad ask sumone to fix it. hahaha takot i. baik tido ngan abg. tido bwh pun bwh la. janji ade org teman.

p/s i saw boy just now. hehe. anyway boy is my childhood fren. lama tak nampak muke dia. lol

mari baca satu cerita

helloOoOoO!

hah harapan la kalo nak tgk picture2 p tgk bowling karna kami sume tidak jadi main bowling oleh kerana terlalu panjang waiting list nye. duh!! rosak program! anyway sokkay la tade rejeki. kami pun jalan2 je la. arini temankan si kawan ni p uitm, p skola sume. hah meh nak bitau satu cite. kami ni jalan2. dlm kete ni si kawan ni baru la pasan beg merah cap ELLE dia ni rupenye piggy skin. bese la berpandukan pengetahuan org kata kalo nak tau leather ni piggy skin ke tidak tgk kalo ade titik 3 dot tu kire sah la tu. so kami pun decided suh kawan ni jgn pakai la. maknanye dia kene samak la kan? dah dia dok usung ke sana ke mari. skali bile balik umah i pun terpk la. dia dok usung sana sini rasenye ade gak daku ni terpegang. bile dah was2 kan amalan syaitan, so saya pun nak la samak. i pegi umah kawan amik tanah, dan samak kan la badan ini. huhuu menggagau gak la bile cetek ilmu. abes tanya kawan sana sini. hehe anyway at least dah blajar kan? hehe kpd pompan itu. i know u are reading dis. rentikan beli beg kulit okek. miahahhahahahhahahha

helloooo

samat pagi. i woke up at 8am today. wahh awal kan? tu pun sbb semalam dah tido kul 10pm. nipu la kalo nak bangun tgh hari gak. well smalam ari penat. p jalan2 sama itu nadia. 1st p the curve. skali jalan2 bosan lak. kami melangkah kuar dan ke times square plak pastu. dia nak carik barang. kaki lenguh toksah cite la. nak je jalan kaki ayam. i bought a bag for school. haha penat sangat smalam. sampai tido awal. today ade activity gak. nak neman nadia p sekolah mintak cop, dia nak p uitm shah alam amik mini transkrip and pastu p main bowling. yey! hahaha tu acara yg dinanti nantikan. okeh kalo ade picture menarik nnt akan di tampal disini okek. babai. have a nice day

Tagged from Kak Red

akak red, sorry la lambat reply tag akak ni. esok nak final exam intersession. bese la org sebok coti semester saya nyemak2 amik peksa hehe. hah demi akak red, ku gagahkan juga. by the way ni hah isi kandungan latest handbag. baru balik study group la katakan.

1. nampak casing camera? camera nye tade la kan dah duk amik gamba ni. mcm akak red gak la angkut camera p mana2 je. kot jumpe akak red sok luse leh amik gamba dua ye.
2. compact powder. i hardly wear it but kalo dah muka kilat je, pakai la utk touch up sket. bior nampak elok rupenye hehe.
3. ade satu jenis lipstick and satu lip gloss. itu ikut mood aritu la. kalo nampak glam2 sket pakai la lip gloss. but usually lip balm will do too.
4. nampak kipas lipas? hah yg tu paham2 je la bile peluh2 tu, penyelamat tu. bile aircond kelas rosak ke, kat umah org kawen ke, jalan nak p parking kete ke. hah must have thing tau ini barang.
5. ada body mist from body shop. bau plum. bese la bukan sume tempat p ari2 sejuk je. tambah2 p kelas. musti get ready dlm handbag wo. tapi kadang2 dirembat juge oleh classmates. huhu
6. hah yg kaler biru tu tissue la apa lagik kan? time ni khas digunakan utk hidung yg berhingus. hahaha. baru baik demam ni, penuh hidung dgn hingus ku. ekeke
7. kaler orange tu henpon. utk calling2.mak call tny kat mana, kul bape nak balik? tak nampak jalan umah ke? hahaha tp akak red leh gak calling2 saya. huhu ajak p minum2 ke. main bowling ke. tangan dah gatal nak campak bola bowling nih.
8. hah ni out of handbag. nampak bwh handbag ade kaler merah? tu buku text hahaha saje nak bitau sbb baru balik study group la katakan. tu buku quantitative analysis.

okeh kak red, sile la lihat apa yang ada. sbenarnye byk lagi yg ade dlm beg tu. kadang2 ade pencil case, ada calculator. mana sempat, ku sumbat aje. akak sile jadi hakim okek.

p/s wish me luck for tomorrow exam. pray for me. thanks

today's

hey

went back class as usual after having lunch with bunch of friends. tadi dapat result 2nd test. yang i took mase demam aritu. malu nye result daku. what happen to me ntah. elok2 1st test the highest mark, skali 2nd test hancur. huwaaa demam nye pasal and silly mistakes. i cant think straight that time. all i need was sleep and rest. so i dpt 21/40. ye mmg la lulus kan? tapi buat malu je dpt gitu. hampeh tol. anyway tadi ade 3rd test. mintak2 ok la kan? kalo hancur gak tatau la nak jwb mende dah pasni.

hah tadi ade la dua org lelaki ini ajak p tgk wayang. satu ni Raja, satu lagi tatau la nama dia ape. dia ni surfboarder. bole tahan bes gak itu activity kan? tp nak ajak tgk malam ni. mana leh kuar malam on class night. mesti mak marah punye. lain kali kot. lagipun Raja dah temper ngan i kot sbb konon2 ngade2 nunggu special invitation. lagipun dia tgh gado ngan a girl kat situ gak. kenapa tu tatau la kan? anyway tak saba nak tgk transformer. hehe

alhamdulillah. enough said.

arini i really2 proud of myself. segala yang dikorbankan, segala susah payah bangun pagi2 nak pegi kelas. tempuh jalan sesak, dah dtg tibe2 kelas cancel, takpun kene saman ngan pak guard sume tu rase berbaloi (even tak pnah bayar saman tu muahahaha) bile dpt tgk result exam semester lepas. alhamdulillah i dpt 3.43. thats great aite? even tak dean list but to me its more than ok. ye la utk i yg selama ni waktu diploma tak pernah dpt 3 pointer. tibe2 dapat durian runtuh cmni. mahu tak bangga kan? leely ade tanya apa moral story. so i will say that believe in urself and work harder. mesti bole punye kan2? tadi dah bitau mak pasal result ni. gembira nye dia jgn ckp la kan? ye la selama ni waktu diploma asyik bgtau ade sangkut paper la, susah la, sket je dpt. arini tup2 anak dia dpt 3.43. terkedu jugak la dia nak pk kan janji dia nak bwk p sarawak. huhu. ni la hadiah yang mampu i bagi kat abah sempena father's day ni. ye la barang boleh dibeli kan? rase gembira, bangga ni susah tau nak bagi kat abah i. dia tak reti puji anak dia. siyesly mase i ckp i dpt 3.43 dia replied 'nape tak 3.8 kan byk lagik?' i knew bukan dia tanak puji tapi dia tatau cara nak puji anak anak dia bile anak anak dia dah besar2 ni. but i knew deep inside his heart dia bangga kan?

but btol ckp kak red kat blog dia, bile kite hepi sgt mesti Allah nak bg kite satu bende yang sedih kan? tak bole nak tolak. dlm masa i gembire i dpt good marks, my bro tak dpt. i rase sedey utk dia. i knew he can do it. he cleverer than me. everybody knew that. tah mana silap nye skang. dia diam je tanak komen pape. but i know dia sedey apa jadi kat dia. tp mmg tu la sifat my brother. suke pendam apa dia rase. i know he was crying just now cume dia tanak org tahu. ye la big boys dont cry kan? i tau nape dia sedey. 1st people selalu banding2 kan between my bro n me. yela kami dua beradik je. tade sape lagik. org selalu api2 kan dia tanya tak malu ke kalau adik lagi cepat grad dari abang?. dia abang, bakal jadi ketua keluarga, malu la kalo adik lagi bagus. people will say anything. people takkan pk perasaan dia. dia tak tny pun i result i cmne. i tau dr my mom je. he did asked mom for my result and bile my mom bitau je dia nampak lagi kecewa. but its ok what ever he is who ever he wanna be after dis, i tetap kat sokong dia sbb dia abang i. takde abang yang lain. plus i mana ade other siblings?

yey!

im feeling better today. at last. alhamdulillah. after 3 days demam dengan teruk nye, arini im feeling better just cough ngan flu je. tade panas badan, tade muntah2, tade pening2. i can go to school next week. yey

still standing here

hello, its 2am currently and i cant sleep. i had a bad fever. really bad. since yesterday. siang tadi i went to kelas as usual for my 2nd test and i asked permission from the lecturer to go back after the test. b4 im outta class, he returned back my 1st test result. alhamdulillah i manage to get 29/30. at least i prove to that lecturer im not coming to the class just playing around. i singgah clinic after dat and the doctor said my temperature was 39C. no wonder i felt terrible. i went to mcdonalds for bubur ayam. after having my bubur ayam, i took rest for a while. around 2pm my mom kejutkan i untuk pergi bank bayar duit kereta la, pegi umah makcik la anta baju laundry la. so bile balik i demam balik. siyesly im feeling better around 2pm. but maybe my antibodi lom kuat lagik. so my body panas balik. btw my cousin nak belanje i makan sate kajang. but too bad i tak larat nak bangun pun. i tido sampai la i terjaga ni. sebab tak leh tido dah. i ate my medicine and hoping i akan ngantok afterdis. anyway i nak post one story kat sini. remember that girl i talked about lately? its kinda obvious when her bf and she send me message in the same day. well to be honest im not angry but i jauh hati je. mcm akak red kata la jgn pk pk dah kan? carik kawan baru. im not angry wif any matters she did to me. i tried not to be sensitive but do she really care? and that man plak bagi message ckp "i hope our problem wont effect ur relationship with her."well tak de kene mengena pun between them. this is about manner and attitude. bile dah tak de baru nak terkial? masa ade tu agaknye pk tak? and pls do not drag any frens of us utk masuk campur. and rite now, i nak tido balik coz im too weak to stay longer.

end of weekend

hey. today i woke up around 12pm and i do my laundry then i started doing some revision for this upcoming test. tak sampai 1 jam i study, i boleh berhenti kejap tengok movie kat tv. eventhough i dah tengok The Pacifier, i nak tengok lagi sambil tunggu washing machine stop. lepas habis tengok tv, i sidai baju and i duduk balik kat meja study and did some revision. but too bad, around 4.30pm i felt so sleepy! omg. i terlalu ikut kata hati til i tido until 6pm. cuaca pun enak je untuk i close my eyes and get a rest. hehe. this evening hujan sepanjang hari kan? so best je rase nye tido. after i woke i send text sms to Sidah asking for makan2 kat kedai mamak. but she ask for accompany her to fetch her friend at Gombak.

well sangat jauh dari rumah i and hujan lebat and banjir in several roads. luckily she drove a Honda CRV. can u imagine if she lend her sister's kelisa? hehehe mesti stuck tengah jalan kan? so lepas amik kawan dia, we went for kayu nasi kandar nearby our house. lepak2, makan, anyway sidah's fren is very friendly. people call him Kecik maybe memang sebab size dia yang kecik. hehehe. after sidah sent me home, i felt dizzy. tadi terkena hujan masa jalan dari car park to the mamak's. i ate 2 panadols then i continue wif my studies. right now? sleepy! still dizzy and i started sneezing. huwaaa i tanak demam. this tuesday ade test lagipun my mom pernah told me that if her daughter ni demam memang payah nak jaga. i agree sangat2 coz tonsil akan bengkak, demam sampai merah2 muka and suka dibelai belai. hahah rimas agaknye mak ku itu. bila lagi kan nak manja2 ngan mak? esok i takde kelas coz that lecturer batalkan kelas. luckily la sebab i ada masa nak rehat. hehe. but ade test plak esoknye. good luck to me then. *winks*

2nd long day - i need to study!!

hey blog. actually i went to sleep yesterday around 5am and i woke up 12pm today. quite not enough sleep actually. hehe i have planned for myself that i will study for my upcoming test today. but suddenly my mom asked me to bring her balik kampung. i terpk sekejap, bile mase lak nak study ni. but sokkay la my test will be on tuesday. i bole cover lagi after dis. by the way my kampung tak la jauh sangat. klang to kuala selangor. kampung kuantan to be exact. ala yang famous ngan kelip2 (firefly) tu. tu la kampung i. actually atuk ngan nenek dah takde. tinggal my uncle je kat sana and we went there to celebrate my little cousin's besday. actually her besday was on 6th june so decided to bring her a cake. then kat umah uncle i ni macam2 jenis makanan i tala masuk dalam perot. ikan bawal sweet sour, ayam pedas, kari udang and acar buah. perghh menjilat jari makan wo. my uncle's wife mmg pandai bab2 menjamu anak anak suadara nya. after the celebration. we went to Bukit Melawati. bukan melawati kat kl tu tau. it is located kat town kuala selangor. decide nak jalan2 sana. skali sampai sana kereta dah tak bole naik atas. for those yang tatau apa ade kat bukit melawati meh i bitau. kat sini la one of the place ahli2 ilmu falak yang tgk anak bulan utk tentukan raya ke puasa ke. and sini banyakkkk spesis kera. in fact dat kereta skang dah tak bole naik, diorang sediakan train. ala mcm kat zoO mase kecik2 dulu naik. eh kecik ke? i rase setahun lepas i ade naik kat zoo taiping and aritu naik train kat genting. ekeke. i enjoyed myself. bes sgt dpt jalan2 kat area kampung sendiri. agak jakun gak la kan?

my uncle, little cousin and my other auntie

ni la rupe train yang i naik. kami pilih gerabak last. did u notice dat that kid holding an umbrella? tengah2 naik train dgn feeling nye skali ujan plak. so tempias la. kene la cover2.

after dat kitorang balik kampung kuantan, we went for that firefly place. after renovation that place had became better and organized. those people yang tak tahu apa tu firefly, its a one kind of insect that came out at night and enhance light thru its body. ala mcm dalam iklan TNB dulu la. nak pegi tgk firefly (kelip2) ni u kene redah sungai selangor dgn cara traditional. i mean sampan. tak bole pakai bot sbb kalo bising nnt kelip2 larik. no camera pls because its flashes. bole buat kelip2 tu lari gak. one tip i nak bagi kat sini for those people who are interested, pegi masa awal bulan around 1hb - 15hb. better. siyesly and make sure its not raining, but kalo after raining lagi banyak kelip2 kuar dari hutan. hey i enjoyed watching this fireflies when i was kid. ye la i tgk for free coz my uncle own that place. hehe. rate for this journey is rm40 per sampan. and satu sampan tu 4 org. well if u rase u tanak lepaskan peluang tgk mende ni, sila la. especially kids. mesti suke tgk bende ni. mesti rase nak simpan dalam botol waktu malam. well i dah penah buat mase kecik2.

then lepas balik dari kampung, i went out to uptown shah alam. nak bawak cousin jalan2. i went there wit couples of frens here and jalan2 tgk barang2 and end up with nothing to buy. coz i rase mcm tak perlu. but i saw a jacket. its a GAP jacket. i rase bundle and its original tau. rm190. jacket nye labuh. omg cantik sangat. tp bile pk takkan nak beli lak? ehehe after pusing2 kat uptown about 2 hours, we went for supper kat seksyen 7. makan2, gelak2, minum2 then anta my cousin and here i am posting an entry for my day out activities. hehe. and i berazam nak study esok. hehehe i can do it! go go naz.

LOL

last night bf kepada kawan perempuan i yang i citerkan last few days ago ade la msg i kat ym. which i dah delete pun dia nye id dari my ym list. so dia msg and asked why i dingin ngan dia skang. heh. dia tanya why? and i reply la as 'like i care?' so dia ckp i kejam ngan dia. he didnt expect me to be so mean to him. then i cakap la i dun give a damn bout him anymore. i able to eager my feeling last night. how selfish he is to me. and ni la first time i berlaku kejam pada orang. i mean kejam cara ignore people. well i puas. biar dia tau betapa saket nye ati bila dibuat gini and padan muka dia jugak kan? to whom it may concern GO N DIE!

my long long day

hello hello hello!!!

mase i post this entry i just went back from jusco bukit raja. went for shrek 3 film. well kind of bored film i guess compared to shrek 1 and shrek 2. too straight to the point and not many jokes included in this film. but anyway i had my long day today. started last night which i cant sleep. i cant find the exact spot place to sleep even usually i use to sleep anywhere and at anytime. when finally i can close my eyes and sleep suddenly my mobile phone rang at 2 am. omg fully annoying kan? then i hard to sleep again. in addition i had nightmare last nite, i kena ugut akan dibunuh oleh orang jahat. im too scared dalam mimpi tu til i felt tension during sleep. in the morning i went to class as usual and traffic jamed! a bus accidently hit penghadang jalan at the 3rd lane in federal highway. malaysian people luv to watch and keep slow to see the accident. of course everybody dont want to miss to see live the incident but come on the bus had been pull out to emergency lane but still have people keep slow. then after arrived in uitm, race day for PALAPES (army) was held today. omg they blocking my way. i dont mind if they held the function here but guards should take care of them. do not allowed them to cross the road sesuka hati. sudahnya sampai nak terlanggar diorang pun ada. hadoi. silap2 tengah lari2 kene langgar lak dengan aku ni hah. pastu ive no mood in the class coz im sleepy. too sleepy for class. luckily that sir noticed how sleepy i am and asked me to do a task given in front of the class. after finished up the task, one of my classmate pengsan! dia asthma actually and demam currently. papah la dia keluar dari bilik yang sejuk ni. dah sibuk jaga dia. takut pape jadi kat dia pulak kan? punya la cuak tengok kawan sendiri pengsan sampai sesak2 nafas. lepas habis kelas, actually i tanak tengok wayang coz im too tired but i dah janji ngan kawan2 and i dah book ticket to so 7 of us went for shrek 3 but sadly its a boring film. then i went to mcd for ice cream thought it may be helpful to me. but stil cant recover my mood so decided to come home. after sending 4 other friends, i went home and my mom told me our Prime Minister will get married this Saturday to a woman name Jeanne Abdullah ( Jeanne Danker ) as stated by Pejabat Perdana Menteri.

New First Lady

im happy for our PM and i hope he will be happily ever after. amin.

p/s enough of my very long and long day. akak red, shopping sakan yerk. jgn lupe ole2 okek.

rasa hati ini

saya rasa sangat jauh with one of my best buddy. am i too conservative or im not as open minded as i thought. i dont blame her for where do she live now. distance always not the reason.we're still in the same town just her family moved out to other place within our town. i do feel like she already changed. i knew she make a move to make her life better.but do i feel better with it? am i jealous to her? 100% not. im not jealous. but sometimes i feel like she is far away from me. do i already been left behind? do i need some changes in my life? do i need to talk to her what i feel rite now? other friends assume she is enjoying her life rite now. give her some space. i knew she have a lot of friends. she is fun, she is gorgeous and she is pretty. everybody seems like wanna be her friend. i know if she is reading this entry she might think that 'apa saja la si ella ni pk kan' but i do miss her. she got her own life. she doesnt need me to advice her anymore. she doesnt need my shoulder to cry on anymore. currently she is with her exbf again. to that particular man, i hate you. from the deepest of my heart. i hate you because u such a jerk to me. when u cant have this little girl, u came to me and beg to me to help u getting back with her. after all this while, after she came back to you, you dont need me anymore aite? what kind of person are you? selfish and unthankful. hey you man, go and die. seriously.

Rimas - The Fabulous Cats

Lari lari lari

aku lari tinggalkan semua ini

Untuk mencari-cari

cari ketenangan diri

Pergi pergi pergi

engkau pergi dari hidupku ini

Ku tak mahu mahu

engkau hadir dalam diri ini

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu

Ku simpan semua sebak didada

Biarpun ku yang terluka

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Lafazan kata dari bibir

Adakah ianya dari hati

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Titisan airmata dari pipi ke bumi

Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

Mengapa aku yang terluka

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Engkau yang meminta

Aku yang sengsara

Rimas rimas

Aku rimas

Tinggalku seorang kecundang

Istana jiwaku goyang

Roboh dan tumbang

Sawanku lantang

Tidak berpantang

Letupnya siang siang

Bukannya alang kepalang

Datangnya perang

Dan bawaku ke jurang

Pulanglah sayang

Janji ku tatang

Ku hapuskan dalang

Dalangnya sayang

Sayangnya hilang

Hilanglah garang

Garangku terbang melayang

Terbongkangku terbang kau terhoyong-hayang

Tak pandang belakang

Terkankang gilaku tak diundang

Ku rapuh semua tak bertiang

Janjiku kini kan bertulang

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lari tinggalkan

tinggalkan semua

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Untuk mencari ketenangan

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Tinggalkan mu sendiri

me + insaf

this saturday catat sejarah untuk myself sebab buat pertama kali nya i involved in enggagement ceremony of my 2nd cousin from my mom's side. my mom have no siblings so she is very close to her cousins. so one of my adik saudara and also known as Ngah or dulu mase kecik2 people call him as Abok. he is younger than me. he was enggaged wif a girl from Kuala Lipis, Pahang. we call her as Mai this saturday evening. so kami sebanyak 6 kereta pegi la meminang Mai yang kami selalu jumpa kat umah mak ngah sebab dia memang selalu datang. knew her back i found out that both of them work in the same place before Ngah accident patah kaki. Mai ni jugak la jaga Ngah masa patah kaki. so bila Ngah dah elok, his dad kata baik lah dicepatkan sebab orang kampung dah mula mengata. so kami suma pegi la menyertai rombongan meminang Cik Normairazita (payah nak sebut). very the hulu kampung dia. very! so kitorang arrived around 12pm and terus la memulakan tujuan tu. one thing yang i proud sangat, my dad been appointed as a speaker from Ngah's side. bayangkan i yang panic nak dengar apa my dad cakap nanti. but alhamdulillah abah buat i rasa sangat bangga sebab he managed to go with the flow.

left side Mai's father, right side my dad

lepas bincang2, Mai pun keluar dari bilik untuk disarungkan cincin oleh bakal mak mertua. eh wait a minute, bukan ke if bertunang cincin bukan disarungkan oleh mak mertua? paling menarik i nak share rupanya Mai ni ada 22 siblings out of 4 mom. productive? unplanned? no comment for that.

Mai & Mak Ngah

korang mesti nak tahu apa hantaran. 15 hantaran tu but i insaf la bila tengok dari segi hantaran. some of the things yang diguna as hantaran i tak pernah terfikir nak guna and non branded of course. but they managed to wrap nicely even some of the things i pakai for daily use. but it is better than never. dengan duit hantaran rm5ooo, i rasa macam mimpi. almost people more than rm10000 as duit hantaran but Ngah ngan Mai rm5000 je.

the blue one is from man's side and the green is from woman's side

after negotiation between 2 side, we are welcomed to have our lunch and and that rite time, i baru perasan khemah yang disediakan untuk kami tu macam khemah yang ada kain canvas dan ditegakkan guna kayu. menarik sangat. selalunye khemah camni dibuat untuk penanggah je. cool kan?

i bukan nak kata i ni insaf dah jadi baik, tapi i bangga la dengan Ngah. se sen pun mak ngah ngan pak ngah tayah kuar2 cari mainan untuk adam. tetiba skang i terpk bila lak i nak kawen? overall i insaf sebab marriage isnt for meeting wife but how the other parties accept u unconditionally. it also isnt about money, it is one way of 2 differ party merged together. i insaf juga sebab i tak pernah tengok umah sehulu gini. and the lauk pauk, even barang2 hantaran tak glamour, he stil manage to get 15 hantaran even non branded things but yet stil meriah dengan kedatangan kami yang disambut dengan mesra. after 2 hours spend kat sana, kami pun balik and singgah di air terjun Hutan Lipur Lentang. kids went for swimming but person like me? watch and see only. heheh. overall i enjoyed my saturday life, im very proud of my Ngah and my DAD especially for his excellent job.

Finally...

from the left: my mom, my dad, mak ngah, mai, ngah and this lil cute girl ana.

im sooOoOo in LovE!

i luv thursday. coz ive got no class on friday til sunday. amazing aite? i dun have to wake up early. hoho. well last night i send short text message to someone. yeah someone that i used to call him 'my baby' haha is it? just hoping he doing fine.

hah arini kan pegi kelas parking full? duh! i have to walk jauhhhhh dari faculty. omg. peluh2 i sampai kelas. dah la aircond dalam kelas tu rosak dari memula start kelas. but as usual after class , classmates and i went for lepaking having our lunch together. by the way tadi one of my classmate kata dia jumpe Anuar Zain kat secret recipe. i asked her to give her handphone to this my damn favorite singer. but the singer kata malu nak cakap sebab flu! haaaa damn jealous kat sheila dapat jumpa my favorite singer. and sheila kata he say hi to me. omg! hi to u too! i luv anuar zain very much. hello anyone out there kalau knew anuar zain please do introduce him to me *winks*

Pirates of the Carribean 3

i went for a movie with leely this evening. we went for pirates of the carribean. to be honest i totally forgot what is all about in the part 1 and 2 of the film. totally cant remember except for the davy jones which is the sotong one. hehe. it was fun to pay rm10 for the movie and i really enjoyed my day. actually unplanned activity for leely and me. we just replacing leely's fren booked. we got a nice seat. 3 from the back. quite good aite compared to other people 1st row from the screen? but im a bit annoyed by 2 guys behind me when one of them trying to be a film comentator and trying to explain the other guy what happen, why dis, why dat. kalau ikut hati mahu je i sound but hey kalau i buat cam tu, i pun making noise kan? one thing yang tak pernah berubah dalam panggung wayang is handphone. come on la, people make money by doing advertisement, people spend money as a reminder to keep your mobile phone in silent mode. everybody knew dat. but it usually happen when ure really in the mood when the plot of the story is getting exciting then eventually someone mobile phone rang. omg. i thought it was in the movie. im about to throw something on him. dah la berbunyi, agaknya maximum volume kot. but overall i luv this film. orlando bloom, kiera knightley, johny depp as usual act like so damn natural. funny elements always in jack sparrow. and finally, william married to elizabeth but too bad elizabeth have to wait another 10years. wanna know why? go and see it urself!

bad news or good news?

hey
i just went back from class just now. took my lunch wif leely, jery and jaa. well they are funny. i wont stop laughing with them. at least i have a bunch of people that makes me happy everyday. well i went to wash my car. its been 3 months i didnt wash my car. omg im totally lazy to bring that tiny car to that place. and im too lazy to wash by my own. but today, i gagahkan juga mata ni singgah basuh kereta. yey! the result is my car is shining back. hahaha thanks to the washman. hehehe

hah something happen in class just now. the lecturer recognize me! OMG! 3 times he called my name and asked whats so funny back there that made us laugh hahaha. silly que. i wont tell him anyway. he started to remember afzan's name. jaa's name. well im not sure whether its a bad thing or a good thing. but i guess i cant simply turn my head to afzan and talk with her after dis. coz the lecturer will call our name hahaha. almost forgotten, i had my 3rd quiz today. 3rd quiz within 2 weeks lecture. isnt it interesting? hahaha rasa nak jerit je kat dat sir tu and tell him IM NOT READY! but at the end i did my quiz by guessing the que. hahaha hope it will be fine. hey do u think when the lecturer knew ur name is a good thing?

anger

i just went back from my daily class. well today my anger was quite beyond of my control. the lecturer gave us assignments last thursday and we have to submit this morning. after submitting, he asked do we have diffculties in doing the assignments. so i pick up my hand and say yes. i really have some difficulties. ye la mana tak ada masalah, dia ajar bab theoritical part je. mathematical part dia belum ajar lagi. so when i asked him question or my curiosity about the question, he simply replied if i couldnt understand the question thats mean i dont read the text book. hell no! ive the book 5 times and no such things example like the questions. so he asked me to read again and i noticed that stil no such things what he wanted me to find out. so he asked me to search for word DISCARDED in the chapter given. after reading 7th times stil i have no answer then he came to one of my classmate and read our text book. and what was the silly part is he is using the old edition of the text book. we are now using 9th edition and he stil using the 5th edition. so then he realized that he didnt do not even one exercise with us. haaa. at that time i can only think how good if i can laugh at him! and tell him dat we didnt came to class to playing around. even we did sumtime *winks* im a bit angry with him. the subject should be more interesting coz there are more mathematical part than the theory part. i luv calculation. but he did it as the whole subject was theoritically. menyesal btol tukar kelas. i ingat nak ikut kawan2 in the same class. sekali lecturer nya membosankan to DA MAX! OMG help me pls!

Diva

www.divathefilm.com

p/s cant wait

Karisma Cinta - Gerhana Ska Cinta

cinta kini kau datang jua
melanda dua insan
dirimu diriku

cinta sungguh indah ceritamu
dunia serasa hampa
bila kau tiada

hati hati cinta juga bisa membawa duka
batas lingkaran yang selalu bisa membawa sukar
demi dikau.. yang ku sayang
demi kasih.. yang ku damba selalu
sayang...

tiada seindah kasih sayang
cinta suci lagu syahdu merdu

tiada seindah karismanya
pabila kau tahu
cinta itu suci

hati hati cinta juga bisa membawa duka
batas lingkaran yang selalu bisa membawa sukar
demi dikau.. yang ku sayang
demi kasih.. yang ku damba selalu
demi..dikau..yang ku..sayang
demi kasih..yang ku damba selalu
sayang...

sayang...
sayang...
sayang.....

p/s i luv this song. everytime i heard this song, i'll sang together. *winks*

today's activities

hello blog.

mari blogging bersama ciknazla. well its been 2 days i started my short semester in uitm shah alam. im taking quantitative analysis (QMT) in advance. so i will be able to take less subject for next semester. my lecturer is mohd azham. i dunno where is he from. coz he told class let it be his secret. but one thing forsure hes not uitm lecturer. bored + sleepy within his class. for 2 and half hour class without break or jokes makes me feel bored. siyesly hello sir pls make something interesting to us. then today i got a pop quiz from him. oh my gosh 5 questions and i cant even answer one question. silly me. not paying attention. coz im very sleepy eventhough i manage to sleep for 8 hours last night. hehehe.

anyway, after class ended, i went to jaya jusco for movie wit leely and sarip. we went for Sumolah by Afdlin Shauki. well all i have to say i had fun wit this story. funny + straight forward story. taught us to proud being malaysian. and automatically i have learned some basic about sumo sport which orignally from Japan. and i really luv a phrase by Afdlin himself which is 'Jantan rempit paling agong kembali lagi' hahaha really classic + catchy. overall i had fun since im so down yesterday. and im back. nazla wont give up coz nazla beliefs that life is a dream to be realized and i can do better than this!

what ive done?

i feel bad. seriously. i feel bad to myself. i am a bad person.i knew one guy couples of weeks. i knew he got a gf. he had told me before.we will sms and chat every night until one day we started to change the environment.i mean we started to sms and chat a bit naughty, a bit daring, a bit cheeky. i knew the risk im taken and i knew what gonna happen at the end of the 'frenship'

but i buat bodo je wit that issues. i thought everything gonna be fine. but nowadays i realized how cheap am i, yeah i mean how come i jadi begini. curious.i do deserve better than this. am i some kind of slut? i did something wrong. not only to that guy, the gf but to myself too. i forgot to appreciate myself. i let that thing happen and at the end when i see me in front of the mirror i will keep thinking 'shame on u naz'. malu sangat pada diri sendiri. priceless me. i need to stop that 'frenship' coz im not like dat. im ok wif my life, i got family, frens and lives. yeah a good lives even sumtime i feel alone without a bf. what ive done before this is a mistake. i need to learn from the mistake. furthermore im not in luv wit that guy either. poor little naz. hoping someone who will give her attention until forget to appreciate her own life.

i deserve better. trust me.

Kembali Bersama - Kaer

Saat Pertemuan Itu
Menghadirkan Keindahan
Menafikan Hakikat Sebuah Perpisahan
Dengan Senyuman Manis Bertamu
Bicara Kau Pun Terganggu
Renunganmu Dipaut Pohon Nan Kerinduan
Yang Dulu

Mengapa Harus Resah Tika Bertemu
Sedangkan Dulu Kau Tetap Pilihanku
Seperti Mimpi Dirimu Muncul Kini
Namun Segalanya TersuratBuat Kita
Tetap Bersama Oh Oh

Sejak Tidak Melihatmu
Hidupku Serba Keliru
Hadapanku Hanya Wujud Dalam Bayangan
Oh Bila Senyuman Manis Bertamu
Bicara Kau Pun Terganggu
Renunganmu Dipaut Pohon Nan Kerinduan
Yang Dulu

Mengapa Harus Resah Tika Bertemu
Sedangkan Dulu Kau Tetap Pilihanku
Seperti Mimpi Dirimu Muncul Kini
Namun Segalanya Tersurat
Buat Kita Tetap Bersama

Sekiranya Dulu Kau Masih Disampingku
Impian Kasih BerbungaBertakhta Dihatiku
Ku Harapkan Kau Kembali Bersama Diriku
Tak Ku Duga Kau Menjelmakan Diri
Kasih…… Kasih…… Oh Oh Oh

Seperti Mimpi Dirimu Muncul Kini
Namun Segalanya TersuratBuat Kita Tetap Bersama
Segalanya Tersurat Buat KitaTetap Bersama…

p/s i luv this song. never bored

saturday afternoon

hey blog.

last thursday i went to genting highland wif couple of friends by bus. then get up there by skyway cable car. the temperature not so cold as we thought haha. hot. just imagine how klang after raining. not so cold. we went to the outdoor park, play some games, ride the train, boat hehe all the silly and simple activities to relax our mind. around 1pm it was raining and we decided to have our lunch at kenny rogers. that was the first time ever i saw sarip eat a lot of foods. a bit shock and a bit worried. what happen to her. *winks* then we continue our activities laughing, joking, teasing each other. it was fun. its been a long time we never have so much fun together. we took pictures. i mean a lot of pictures. i have a great day by the way. to leely, sarip, sidah, alan here some note, i luv you guys. you rock my world! and by the way, im posting this blog after 2 days visiting genting because im too tired for typing words. im so damn lazy woman. but im cute. hahaha

p/s hey sean. keep blogging ya

#my.ghost

well semalam ade gath lagik. i mean not a gath. jom jumpe session i think. skada jumpe makan2 minum2, kuar kan cite ape patot, lawak, tuka pendapat. so bukan gath kot? ramai gak org baru. tak kenal pun muke. yg hensem, yg vogue, yg chubby, yg kiut, yg poyo mcm bagos pun ade. hahaha lantak la kan. at least kite kenal la sape org tu. tapi smalam mcm tak berapa seronok. ntah naz yg pk cmtu atau ape. tp mcm diketepikan je.mcm sume ade kwn2, naz termangu je. been ignored. ooops!

finally...

yey at last! im done with my final exams.

even my last paper was damn hard. just pray to Allah. i'll be fine. insya allah.

so i decided a few days ago, bile dah abes exam, nak tido sepuasnya.

ye la im struggling for last 3 papers. tp sadly takleh nak tido lak. hampeh.

but anyway im freee!!! rite now im waiting for my friends. diorang balik je,

teros p bersuke ria. i dun care!

Accepting myself

hello readers. are there any readers? ahaha nvm just pretend there are sum readers hehe

last few days, i noticed a friend of mine, or maybe i just can use the word younger sister in thn crew webnet, Hazlina_Hanim engaged! wow isnt it a surprise?? but i do think back. she have changed herself i guess. she deserves what she have rite now. as far i knew her, from tidak bertudung type jadi bertudung type, perhaps i bole kata she are more matured than myself. she really is. so dia engaged wif her beloved of course. so she gonna be a wife soon. hehe congratz anyway to her. but one think forsure i realize, hey she is younger than me. and she engagaged. and me? still finding myself? or i didnt even know the real me actually. what am i looking for in lives. goals, missions, aims, desires bla bla all those words which i cant define. even im taking personal development class now haha. and i do still remember what afzan told me. there must be sumone for me, but rite now i just cant see it. oh gosh if i ever have a power, let me see for a while pls?hahaha im not tired being alone coz im not alone in this world. but i do feel alone sumtimes. emptiness. deep inside my heart. empty space.

but sumtimes i realized fast. i keep saying all those positive motivation inside my head. accepting myself unconditionally, rewarding myself when credit is due, and the most important thing is no need luv for hurting myself. i do not want that luv typo. so i guess i just wait and see.

Current Mode

hello

after two paper yg dah dijawab semalam dan kelmarin. too lazy to study for mandarin.
esok paper mandarin will be in the morning. MALAS NYA!

hehe haha hihi huhu

3.16 am
24th April

saje online jap nak bitau ptg ni dah start final exam!

24th - Public Speaking
25th - Finance
27th- Mandarin
6th- Marketing
7th- Personal Development
Operation Management

*6th & 7th - all papers are theory papers. conclusion = jangan kacau aku on dat week! *

*lepas paper operation management, jom kite p suke ria hahahahha*

what a..

hello

hah did i stated here b4 all my good frens tak wish my besday yesterday? except for nadia.

well a bit upset la kan no one among them remember. sume bz wif final exams. but the things is, rupe2 nye mereka dah wat satu rancangan. asked me to temankan leely p ptptpn damansara heights and pastu ajak p lunch. rupenye ade makan2 kat pizza hut. and they bought me 5 slices of cakes. hehehe differ cake each. bes bes. diorang kata nak bia i rase sume. wow! btol2 dah menghargai kan? sangat terharu. and nak tau satu cite? rancangan ni hampir kantoi bile pekerja pizza tanya 'cik, nak bwk kek skang ke?' hoh? i tekejot. kek mende lak ni kan? hehehe plus they bought candles yg kalo tiup je nyala balik. hehe penat btol nak tiup. and dia mcm ade bunge api. bes sgttttt. sgt besss. even simple tp sangat sronok bile kite duk ngan kwn2 makan sama2.

ptg lak i went to library study. sampai kul 11pm hehe. ye la duk umah ni susah sket nak study kan? sume pun tau kan. anyway thanks guys yg wat surprise party ni. sbb diorang bersusah payah nak kenekan i. sbb slalu nye i la mastermind in any surprise party. so kire susahla nak wat utk i sbb mcm2 i dah wat dulu. hehehe

My Day

Im 22nd today! Happy Birthday to me. Moga panjang umur, murah rezeki, berjaya dalam hidup dan sihat selalu. amin. yey! ucapan utk diri sendiri ni. Thanks to everyone yang wish ye. tak sangka ramai gak ingat hari jadi naz. anyway sebelah ni besday kek yg dibuat kawan2 kelas finance. hehe tadi kat kelas ade surprise party kecik2 dr kawan2. wah bes la. rase diri dihargai. sangat seronok. teringat plak masa surprise party mase taun lepas. sangattt seronok. ade gak yg wish moga cpat dapat bf. naz amin kan aje. *winks*

WHY PAY MORE

hey kinda long time tade mase nak post blog. actually been busy with studies. assignments. quizzes, tests, presentations. and tak lama lagi nak final dah. and my lucky date was 24, 25, 27, 6, 7 napekah tiada gap? tu je persoalan dihati and for 7th May tu ade dua paper skali gus. GOSH! mintak2 everything will be fine aite? insya allah. mudah mudahan

hah back to the topic. why pay more? hehehe basically this que pop in my mind when i went to sacc (to whom yg jauh dari malaysia sacc stands for shah alam city centre). i went there with sum friends to have lunch. so makan2, jalan2, gelak2 then nak byr parking fees, one of my friend kata 'hey kalo kite bile sumthing in sacc, we only have to pay rm1 for parking' so kami sume decided to ask information centre. so they asked us to go to their office. and u know what, in order to get rm1 for parking fees, we have to walk and walk. the office was in the basement and outside sacc. hahaha sambil jalan tu i ckp ngan my fren. this is the 1st time and the last time i kemaruk nak byr rm1 ehehehe so why pay more? u dun have to find the office, u dun have to walk fast after 15minutes given to move your car. so pay more. is it? hehehe actually ni pun company' s startegy kot. so people wont be bothered.

JOm Jumpe Session Versi 2

Venue - Midvalley Megamall

Time - 2pm (janji melayu)

bebudak #my.ghost wat jom jumpe session again. kali ni lebey ramai. lebey menarik. tuan tanah pun ada with his fiance. i went to mv wif fariz, benz ngan eerin. met pert there. kenal ngan soul_breker ( zal), shah, ody. first time jumpe. tp sgt peramah sume. yg lain sume tetamu bese, iwan, zufry, tuan tanah himself (aie), mem (tunang dia), and buat julung kali nye papajahat (wahyudy) dtg bersama awek and i would like to call mamajahat hehehe. activities? makan2, borak2 sampai lebam, men bowling ( i adalah peserta terhebat dgn jatuhan pin paling rendah) LOL, dan makan2 lagik selepas itu. around 9pm everybody sume balik umah. overall sgt menarik. and iwan makin bole betego sape ngan naz even tak la ramah sgt. tp ok la kan, tego juge. paling klaka bile ody ingat im not Cherish^The^Love. dia ingat i ni [aku-park-nick-aje] hehehe klaka2. lepas ni bile lak jom jumpe session part 3. ehehe teringat lak kat bebudak thncrew kan. lama btol tak jumpe sume.

p/s neem hurry back!

*bengang*

aaa bengang sgt ngan abah arini.
last 2 weeks i ada usulkan pada dia nak tuka internet ke streamyx
well jgn gelak eh sbb currently stil using tmnet dial up.
jawapan dia ketika itu ' akan abah fikirkan'
hari ni i pun bertanya bagaimana dgn cadangan tu
dengan selamba nye dia jwb ' tak tahu, tak larat nak fikir'
aaaaaaaa bengang nyeee!!!!

2nd Concert of AF5

hey blog. well pertaining to the topic above i as an unofficial commentator for AF ( for those out there who dont even know what is AF, actually a reality tv show known as Akademi Fantasia ) would like to comment all the 14 students that performed just now. hehehehe ade nampak pro tak? ekekeke

Candy - Semua Jadi Satu (Kris Dayanti,Ruth Sahanaya&Titi Dj)
A good start performance. Untuk tirai pembukaan Konsert AF yg ke-2. Ada attitude. But tatau nape sebenarnye or other word motive the singers, yeah i mean the 3 Diva dtg and beri ucapan. hahahaha well it works if Astro think it might help to boost up confident level for Candy.

Rizal - Kembali Merindu (Slam)
My favourite contestant actually. Nyanyi dah ok. walaupun toward the end sama je kan. Expression bagus gak cume kan he have a big eyes. so kalo dia besarkan mata mcm nak makan org. TAPI YANG PALING TAK SUKE HARINI DIA MENJAWAB APA YANG PENGKRITIK CKP. BIADAP NAMANYE KALO DLM KAMUS ORG MELAYU. hahaha

Ebi - Bailamos (Enrique Iglesias)
SEXY. enough said. hohoho. well arini pasan yang dia ade ability to influence ME untuk terus tgk dia. and btw the cute little girl yang menari with him was so interesting. with her arabic dance costume. Ebi's voice sangat menggoda. i buy it.

Heliza - Aku Bukan Untukmu (Rossa)
One of student yang i tunggu2. well sangat bagus for the opening part. i mean when other friends kerumun kat dia as a circle. ade la belakon2 antara syawal ngan dekna tp lebey kpd MENYEMAK JE. but one thing forsure i luv her dress. sopan.

Aizat - Basket Case (Greenday)
Bersungguh sungguh. Komited. Size doesnt even matter to him. elok je dia nyanyi lagu ni and very notty2 sket. penuh dgn tenaga. dia berjaya buat i rase eh dia ni kiut je cm greenday.

Fatin - Bila Rindu Ku Sebut Namamu (Siti Fairuz)
Lagu ni ala ala lama gitu. ye la kan kalo tak lama, takkan mak i slamber je nyanyi td kan? mak i ckp dia ni rosakkan lagu. tp Fauziah Latiff kata dia ni lain dr lain. tp cik nazla ckp nape la dibuat lagu ni ala ala dangdut style? ROSAK!

Farha - Biarkan Aku Menangis (Tommy J Pissa)
Hah dia ni mcm sedey. tp tade lak kerut2. mcm nak nanges tp mcm tade pape. suara dia sedey tu. kalo i tutup mata, dgr dia nyanyi, mmg sampai kat hati. tp tgk muke. eh dia ni konpius ke nak sedey ke nak frust ke nak gumbira ke. maybe influenced by his mother yg tak putus2 nak nanges,

Mila - Gotta Tell You (Samantha Mumba)
This is one of my favourite song when i was in school. Mila's voice? sedap didengar. gemersik gitu. tp bile nyanyi lagu ni, tak paham diction dia. ala ala cm dgr ujung2 je suara. mcm cepat penat pun ade Mila ni.

Afiq - Biso Bonar (Hattan)
This is really so called mcm bagus student. yeah dia mmg confident. sampai rase annoyed jugak la. but hey this is my opinion kan. dia nyanyi lagu ni yg sume org tau lagu ni dialek loghat nogori. dia cube la nyanyi cm gaya2 zainal abidin yg nak terbang tp mcm dah jadi tarian sarawak je ekekekeke.

Noni - Mirae (Kiroro)
Not a single word dlm lagu ni i paham. tp comel je dia. baju dia cantik. mekap dia cantik and btol2 nampak mcm org jepun. nyanyi dgn senyum2, eye contact. yeah fine to me i guess

Dekna - Cinta (Amy Mastura)
kononye cinta remaja. ok la kalo dia bagos. i like her tone tp ade prob, nape baju dia pakai tu mcm makcik2 je pegi funfair? hadoi ASTRO PLEASE GUDEI HIM

Dafi - Pencinta Wanita (Irwansyah)
well saya tegode. enough said. sexy + cute + cheeky + notty

Aswad - Nak Kahwin Duit Tak Ada (Sweet September)
adoi mamat penang ni. dah nyampah nengok. bole bile asal bridge lagu dia bantai ckp loghat penang dia je. mcm lari mood i tgk dia nyanyi. menari dia jgn ckp la. kongkang2 abes.

Syawal - Kenangan Mengusik Jiwa (A.Ramlie)
well cheeky with the dancers. nice hair ehehe. dia buat jambul didepan kami. menarik.


based on my opinion antara Afiq and Mila akan kuar this week. tak menarik langsung performance. ntah hape2. hah comment on the clothes baju paling cantik baju Heliza. and btw Ebi tak perlukan haircut. rambut dia ni adalah lucky i okek. ekekeke

Results : Afiq terkeluar minggu ini.

Extras : Sape dapat undian tertinggi konsert minggu ini akan dihadiahkan kebenaran menonton konsert 3 Diva. Syarat nya jika pelajar itu adalah wanita, harus memilih seorang rakan lelaki menemani nya and vice versa.

24th March

I am ToO Lazy to finish up those assignments.
Enough said =)

JOM! JUMPA Session

JOM! JUMPA Session for #my.ghost 15th March

actually sbb tuan tanah turun shah alam lawat tunang. so skali la kan melepak. tak sangka lak ramai yg turun. i mean agak juge la.pert, benz, eerin, tuan tanah himself, sepupu dia, kelise, bladez, grat,deffuser,abe, seffia, jack,amar. ramai gak la. sronok pun sronok.sepupu tuan tanah nama dia fuad. muke mcm fitri af2.kiut2 je org nye. comel dan pemalu. and hah nak kongsi ni, deffuser duduk sebelah i! hehehe hepi btol bile dia dah borak ngan i. after the incident i message him and asked, "we're cool aite?" so agaknye pastu la dia dah tros tego. bes la session tu sampai rase tanak pulang je. tp bese la kan ade cop kad kat umah. so balik awal dari sume org. happening + relaxing session. tq

6 weird things people dont know

actually been tagged by Neem couples days ago, and baru sempat mau reply. hehe well here it goes..

1. not that type of lady who spend long time in the bathroom.

2. big fan of Akademi Fantasia since the 1st season.

3. nescafe = cant sleep.

4. easily thinking wif my emotions instead of brain.

5. good sleep = ligth off + bantal bucuk + 10 hours minimum. LOL

6. usually can think about sumthing else while driving.

I've learned that people will forget what you said,

people will forget what you did,

but people will never forget how you made them feel.

so laugh when you can,

apologise when you should,

let go when you cant change

p/s i miss him

deepest

*berikan aku cinta*

sudah biasa

well dulu i slalu rase rendah diri kan? segan nak join gath. segan nak depan ngan org lain
well itu dulu. skang tidak lagi. im proud to be myself. skang makin lama makin berani berhadapan ngan org lain especially bebudak yg baru kenal.
tadi i ikot kawan i join gath satu cenel kat mirc ni. i tak pnah pun join cenel tu. slamber redah je.
ade la kenal 3-4 org dah thru dat gath. so maknanye tak la susah sgt nak dpt kawan baru.
tp dalam masa yg sama i miss kamil helmy. one of my closest fren currently. so cute and kerek.
kerekness dia tu wat i rase dia sgt istimewa. i miss him. siyesly. and i dah jumpe dia after dia amik i kat uitm and makan2 kat shah alam. then dia anta i balik klang. comel kan? garang2 dia sanggup trun dr bukit tunku ke shah alam and anta i ke klang. hehehe

persembahan dari hati

i had fight wif mom.never talk to each other today. when i arrived from group discussion. she wasnt at home. neither my dad.i felt asleep til 6pm. and realized my mom and dad went to Bagan Lalang for sesi pujuk mak by dad. tu pun i tau bile i call abah. coz abah knew already if this fight berterusan. mcm2 akan jadi tau. ye la sape lagi nak entertain mak kalo bukan anak pompan dia yg tercinta kan? i tatau nak wat ape. ade sket salah i actually. but i pk gak bukan 100% salah i coz im already 22. and i deserved a self respect from other people especially from my own family member. yeah im stil the youngest and most people will told me 'im stil the baby in my family tree' but hell no. in certain part of life, i need sum space and respect from everybody. TQ

burning inside part two

when we were expecting everything gonna be ok but it suddenly turn to be not ok.

when we were expecting a person will wait for us til suddenly the person not there.

make me angry. at him and myself also. i hate being perfect but i do try my best.

and when i knew he didnt even realized im doing my best, im soOoOo dissapointed.

the worse gath ever!

hey blog
arini i p midvalley. ade such a mini gath bebudak cenel uitm dalnet. so i decided to participate since eerin and pert ajak beriye iye. i thought its gonna be fine until the deffuser came and join us. fine if between him and me ade history yg tak berapa bagus. we're no talking to each other since that incident happen. fine wif me then. and i thought by the time goes by, bende tu akan dilupakan gitu saja and he and me will be cool aite?

rupenye i je sorang pk cmtu. i mean pk cm ok la bende dah lepas, lepas je. skang kite borak cm bese la. dari mula dia dtg wif myvi and joop dia tak tego i. fine. dia borak pun tak pnah borak ngan i. fine. until one moment when i try to talk to him kat cosmic bowl, dia berpaling muka dari i yg sedang berkata kata. what the fuck la kan? who he think he is? dia ingat aku ni sampah ke ape? siot nye laki. my mood suddenly turn off. and mase tu jugak rase nak balik je. sbb rase nak nanges bile dia wat cmtu. tp i sabar lagi. pas men bowling p plak mapley luar midvalley.kat sana pun dia buat bodo je ngan naz. am i the one yg sensitive or what. dia tak de tny i ke, nak ckp ngan i ke, pandang ke. tetibe i rase cm org paling bodo dlm muka bumi ni p gath ni. i should follow my heart. bile hati dah rase ragu2, i patot tak pegi je. tapi bese la degil.

tujuan i post ni pun bukan apa. konon2 mintak2 la dia bace kan even i know la dia takkan bace. bia dia tau i REALLY REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF sama dia. i want him to know bout this. thanks.

best regards,
YOUR EX SO CALLED BABY

im not ready

assalamualaikum
dikala i post this blog i baru je balik dr umah makcik i. i mean the closest aunty. i call her as ucu. she is my father's sister. one of my father's sister actually. tp ni la yg paling rapat. kalo rase saket ati ke kat umah, lapa ke, gaduh ngan abg nak tgk tv ke, mesti akan p umah ucu. bese la sana yg ade sepupu i nama boy. pastu tv tade rebut2. boy mesti ngalah nye ngan kakak sedara dia nih. and sebot pasal makan. mesti bes. even kadang2 lauk pauk simple je. tp mesti dpt makan nye. siap tapau lagi balik umah. every malam raya umah tu juga i melepak. sbb anak anak tiri ucu sume ade sana ( ucu kawen ngan his husband yg mmg dah ade anak) well mmg meriah la duk sana. i ade ramai anak saudara la kalo di ikotkan. pak usu naz? mmg bes. mmg sporting. kalo ngan anak2, cucu2, atau anak2 sedara nye ( i la tu) mmg sporting. kire tade la kene bebel ke, kene ceramah free ke. mmg bes la.

pak usu masuk hospital last 3 weeks. doktor kata usus pak usu pecah. the second day pak usu masuk ward, i went to the hospital. suprisingly, pak usu had been admitted in the icu room. i ter pk 'hey serious sgt ke pak usu saket?' well i knew the answer rite now. lepas beberapa hari kat wad icu, doktor kata he will be fine. ubat tidur yg diberi dah habis. but sadly, pak usu tak juga sedar. bile lawat pak usua, i tak pnah lupa ckp pada pak usu yg i dtg tgk dia. after 20 days dlm wad icu and di bawa pula ke wad isolasi kerana takot kuman yg ade pada pak usu menjangkit pada org lain, pak usu pergi tinggalkan kami semua pada ptg khamis 15 Feb 2007. mase tu i dlm kelas. i tatau nak act mcm mana. i tros pegi umah ucu. well i saw my late uncle for the very last time. i tried not to cry. but it didint work. i cried. im not ready for losing him. sebelum maghrib juga arwah pak usu selamat dikebumikan. org kata kalu kite meninggal malam jumaat, tiada seksa kubur. tade serangga dtg gigit pak usu. alhamdulillah kan?

i tak lupe sedekahkan al fatihah, surah yassin tiap kali i teringat kat arwah pak usu. i miss him actually. when im at his home, masih terasa dia ada sekeliling tu. apa yg i regret, pak usu dah bukak mata sebelum dia hembuskan nafas yg terakhir. but no respon bile dipanggil. maybe dia nak tgk anak anak dia, cucu cucu dia, sedara mara dia and paling penting isteri dia. i terpk juge. macam mana la raya i lepas ni. umah sape plak i nak p? stil sama ke condition ni lepas arwah pak usu takde? i did asked one of his grandson, ingat tak muka Aki?(aki = atuk) shidi kata dia tak ingat.agak nye sbb since pak usu dlm wad icu, kanak2 tak leh masuk tgk. bile nak kebumikan pun, shidi tak sempat jumpe. shidi kat skola. tade sape ade masa nak p amik dia. but arini bile i tny balik, shidi kata dia mimpi Aki.Aki suh dia blaja rajin2. and i did asked once again. and shidi kata dia dah ingat muka Aki.

walau dimana saja roh pak usu sekarang, ella harap pak usu ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yang beriman. amin.ella redha dgn takdir Allah swt. Al-Fatihah.

aku pasrah

looking at the tittle its true. pasrah je dgn suratan ni. well this is my 2nd group assignment which needs us to present. i buat on my own and give sum credit to other group members. yey. bagus nye saye. so tonite i heret satu member dr group lain bantu i wat assignment tu. hehehe abes tu nak harap yg lain tu byk sgt aktiviti and syarat2 nak dikenakan.
well actually im glad went out with him. hehehe and im glad dia offer diri nak tlg i.LOL ade niat tersembunyi actually. smalam lak went out wif him, jeri and azra. jalan2, tgk wayang, makan2. kinda have cool moment. sonok gak lepak ngan diorang. of course pasnih akan kuar bersama lagik. hehehe. berbalik pada si dia. td mase anta dia kat umah sewa, dia bg i sumthing. memule i kata tanak. tetibe dia kuar kete dgn membawa henpon i skali. of course la i wont leave the house without my henpon. hehe. so i decided to wait and see. pastu i balik la. sumtime kan i rase cm nak ckp yg i admire kat dia. but hey its too early kan? lgpun i sekelas. tak lari ke mana pun.hehe jgn ade org tekel dia sudey. but hey btw agak2 dia tau tak i ske dia? hmm. cmne nak bagi hint?

tears of my heart

aaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tensionnnn.
my inner prob kembali lagi. this damn period. tertekan tol. i tried not to think bout it. but i cant.
uncomfortable in classes. rase mcm penat2 satu badan. sengal2, cepat letih
tambah2 group presentation i sorang2 wat. yg lain sume buat tatau. tak membantu AT ALL!
jgn kata menaip ke, bg key point pun tade. everything on me. asked them to send it to Dr Aniza also tak bole. i jugak kene wat. dah la perut ni saket mcm org beranak (agak je) i yg kene bersusah payah buat sume. wah kalo cmni la gaya nye, Dr, pls do give me extra credits ok?
huwaaa. rase nak nanges je. dugaan eh? im too tired for all this. and akhirnye akan nanges juge.

my 1st quiz

arini i ade quiz utk paper operation management. last class the lecturer told us there will be an objectives and true false question only. but it end up wif 7 subjective questions. hah apa nak wat. belasah saje laaaa. tapi paham2 je la. everyone not ready for the quiz. masing2 baca ala kadar sbb ingat leh tembak je kalo soklan objective. i was lucky out of 7 question i manage to answer 5 yg i rase confirm btolll. hahaha poyo sungguh. hah bese la bile ngan kwn2 kan selalu share jawapan. i ni bengang la ngan bebudak kiri kanan i. punye la saving anjeng nak bg jawapan. ok, i try to be positive. maybe dia nak uji kemampuan dia gak kan. fine wif me la kalo org dah tanak bg. but bile dah nak abes quiz tu kan. ade ke dedua tu expecting i akan beri diorang jawapan? hahaha hell no la kan. wah kan main lagi jawapan dia tanak share. jawapan aku dia nak lak miahahhaha. well i tau la diorang ni ala ala selfish sket. masing2 nak ke depan tp lupe lak diri tu pun masih memerlukan org lain. ntah la. i sedar skang ni apa apa pun i have to work hard. jgn masih mengharap ade rakan akan bantu mcm time diploma dulu. ade je akan bantu in studies.